TREPANATION BLOODFLOW!!!! LOVE EVERYONE FOREVER BECAUSE I LOVE YOU!!!

here are all my favorite sprites from various games, mostly visual novels.

nowadays, everything seems difficult. why not hold my hand? friday nights, foggy streets and christmas lights!

isn't it wonderful? the budding life of an artist, sick with crohn's disease but still passionate at heart. nothing will stop me!!!

hello. my name is butter, otherwise known as yumidori, which comes from one of my two favorite things back in that time: yume nikki, hence the yume, and midori, a character from one of my favorite visual novels, yttd!

i also go by eden, juggly, stickie, and so on... i have been on the internet since i've been 8 years old!

i am the creator of piafos and an aspiring musician, artist and writer. i enjoy poetry, music and art as well as pottery. plus i like html!

i am a minor and go to high school. i was diagnosed with crohns disease 2 years ago and am still dealing with my fragile health. despite my disease, i am happy, and enjoy coping through various forms of art (such as piafos).

i am a big fan of visual novels and rpgmaker games; notably ace attorney, subahibi, yume nikki, mogeko castle (i don't support the creator), the lisa rpg games, TONS of yume nikki fangames, 811, etc...

i'm in the process of learning japanese on my own and with the help of my lover. i hope to one day make a visual novel myself. my favorite visual novel game is apollo justice: ace attorney, as well as subahibi.

DISCLAIMER!!! PLEASE DONT PLAY VISUAL NOVELS SUCH AS SUBAHIBI, SAYA NO UTA AND SO ON IF YOU AREN'T AWARE OF ITS WARNINGS! THESE GAMES HAVE GREAT STORIES BUT ARE EXTREMELY GRAPHIC EROGES!

i am a huge fan of abstract writing and dadaism. sometimes writing is incomprehensible because it can be, and i find it beautiful. my writing is heavily inspired from the book titled 'the house of leaves'.

psychological horror is my favorite type of horror. although i struggle to watch horror movies. i am a scaredy cat in that regard.

i am very interested in works that explore psychological themes and mental illness in general. i think exploring taboo subjects in media is very important, such as disability and trauma.

please know that i am very nerdy! some topics cause me to rant for hours on end due to how passionate i am about them. i apologise if i sometimes rant a little too much.

IF YOU WANT TO CONTACT ME; PLEASE CONTACT ME THROUGH MY TWITTER ACCOUNT! THANK YOU! I APPRECIATE MESSAGES!

NOTABLE FANDOMS IM IN

ace attorney

danganronpa(loosely)

your turn to die: death game by majority

yume nikki, ynfgs, rynfgs

roblox

811

subahibi(loosely)

MY PHILOSOPHY! MY GOAL IN LIFE!

i want to live happily and bring joy to the people around me like how they bring joy to me. it's unfair to bring pain to others around you and cruel. so that's why i want to love every single person that loves me. that's why i want to forgive and smile and be kind to everyone i meet no matter what their intentions are. i don't want to distrust everyone around me out of fear they'll hurt me. i want to embrace the enemy.

i think that as humans beings there are some people that are truly unfixable and too rotten, such as rapists and the like. but a grand majority are very much fixable, especially if they're young. it pains me to see people still attending middle school doing or saying things they shouldn't do because of their consumption of the internet and the people they interact with. people are mean because someone else was mean to them first. so why not have open arms to everyone you meet? why not be the highlight of someone's day?

i hope we all live happy lives even if everything seems like it's crashing down. i hope my loved ones live happily as well. everyone deserves a good ending!

my goal is to be as kind as i can be, despite the paranoia. and i want everyone to have this goal as well. so please be kind to others. please don't hurt the vulnerable. please soothe the pain of the uncomfortable.

SOME FUN PICTURES OF FIGURES I OWN

heres some little pictures i took of my current figure collection.

RANTS AND KRISTOPH GAVIN!

if you must know i am a BIG BIG fan of kristoph gavin. so much so that i consider him my husband along with my real life lover. we just kind of pass him around.

anywho i am a selfshipper. a selfshipper/yumeshipper is someone who ships themselves with a fictional character and considers that fictional character as a romantic partner. which is exactly what i am!

i've already been selfshipping long before it was more socially accepted to but the internet feels a little kinder in regards to that activity. so i am quite happy.

i have also been with kai satou for a whole year! he is my loving husband and i love to braid his hair. i am a bit greedy i admit because i am married to multiple people. edgeworth as well.

talking about ships... i really like edgeworth being paired up with gumshoe and phoenix. also the ship name for my ace attorney self insert and kristoph is krilvez. because it's alvez and kristoph. they hate eachother.

i am so desperate to get any kristoph gavin merch so if you have any and you'd like to sell it for relatively cheap(under 100 euros) please contact me.

anyways also i heavily identify with apollo justice. he is me and i am nothing without him. i intend to cosplay him and my boyfriend can cosplay klavier.

big fan of klapollo. don't get me started on that. they're so sweet togetherrrr!!!!

krilvez forever. my sweetheart

WHAT DO YOU WATCH??? WHAT DO YOU LIKE???

in terms of stuff i like manga and anime wise; i am a big fan of the yotsuba manga! i've also watched azumanga daioh, girls last tour and i'm planning to read shimeji simulation soon.

i really like the anime made in abyss... but the manga is weird so thats Not Great!!! i'm also really into slice of life type of media, so i've watched lucky star and plus one of my first animes was miss kobayashi maid dragon(unfortunately...wish they just kept the yuri)

additionally... nichijou is a very silly anime. its a comfort anime for me.

i really enjoyed death note! its one of my favorite animes!! plus i'm a big fan of light. hes so evil. oohh hes so evil.

lain was really good. it was difficult to understand but i think i got it. i got some bootleg cds of the lain ost plus a remix cd honestly one of my prized posessions even if its not the real deal. i'm not spendong 300 euros on a cd sorry.

fun fact lain is what got me into boa's music... boa is a really good band and i wish more people listened to other songs from them besides twilight...

one anime i really love is KAIBA and i wish it wasn't so niche. the animation is absolutely stunning and the story is really interesting. i kind of wish they didn't make episode 2 so weird because then i cant really tell people ohh watch kaiba its so good then they see episode 2. but whatever. i really liked its message... plus its entirely available on youtube so yay! no piracy!

AHHHH KAIBA AND NEIRU ARE SO YURI!!!!

my favorite movie ever is suzume. its sooo peak the animation is absolutely amazing and it really draws you in ohhh i wish i could rewatch it!!! also in movies i generally really love ghibli. my favorite movie from ghibli is spirited away since it really reminds me of yume nikki... chihiro and madotsuki best buddies confirmed?

lastly another really good anime was madoka magica. its pretty gutwrenching but i really like what they did with the story and the whole twist on the cute magical girl genre is awesome.

i wanted to rant here about subahibi really quick... so i will.

i really do love subahibi because of how philosophical the writing is and how abstract it becomes in certain scenes. but i do have some gripes with it. number one gripe being what actually happens in the game!!

now i understand what the game is trying to say. despite horrible things happening you have to live happily. it shows all the nasty traumatic things that can happen to people in detail.

but see... this feels very fanservice-y? and drawn out? do i need to read 90 lines about a teacher raping her dad because some dude told her she will only be given the grace of being saved by his hand if she does so?? to their credit the s/a scene of mamiya is well written and not romanticized but i don't want to read that man

also. i don't see how the incest is necessary. like do i need to have some sexual scene between yuuki and hasaki??? please stop??? its not funny or cute its just gross?????

subahibi is hard to like in the way where its extremely interesting to read but the content in it feels like it's just there for shock value. most of the content in subahibi is somewhat justified (due to the ending and the moral of the story) but i wish it was protrayed a different way somehow? but hey its an eroge what can i say. at least it actually has a story and meaning compared to euphoria. (shudder)

also needless panty shots. but i really like how they interpreted mamiya's did/personality disorder. its pretty well done actually.

FUN FACTS OF MINE, GENERAL DISLIKES AND LIKES

my favourite bands are koRn, glass beach and system of a down at the moment. i also like ilkae!

i am an INFP and an aries. i grew up in the 2000s.

big fan of cute things and japanese culture. i'm also interested in hispanic culture as my family has spanish ties.

i see myself as a bunny rabbit and a small dog mixed personnified as a human being.

i have an autoimmune disease, not an autoinflammatory disease. please donate to autoinflammatory research!!!

i own a huge cd collection and wish to have a room entirely dedicated to all the cds i've collected over the years.

i am generally very passionate about weird or experimental music, such as the Wahaha band, picky picnic, boards of canada and aphex twin, to name a few off the top of my head.

this is my favorite album from Wahaha. my favorite song is inanaki.

if you want to know more about my music taste, here's another webpage i made for it!

i am still hesitant about this, but i am possibly autistic and have adhd. there's also a possibility of me having ocd.

i am unlabeled (non-cis) and in love.

former parent of my loving rat pogo.

in loving memory of my child, my furry friend and my cure to sadness. you were very cute

my favorite fruits are strawberry, lemon and green apple.

i hate math with all my passion. it's boring and too complex to understand.

i suck really bad at dancing and i'm bad at sports. i really like badminton, skating and archery though.

i am stupidly clumsy because my feet are somehow inward.

my favorite color is pink and general bright colors. orange is good too.

i really like using crayons and i think people should draw with crayons more.

i love being in empty transportation vehicles and generally quiet places.

i really like urbex.

i live right next to a big forest.

i like listening to yume nikki fangames's osts to fall asleep when i'm having trouble.

i really like buttons. little polkadot buttons.

trinkets are cute i want to collect them.

i suck at painting but its fun.

i own a ps1 and plan to own a ps2, psvita and gamecube.

my favorite icecream is yogurt flavor and raspberry. my favorite sorbet is lime or lemon.

i love graffiti and street art.

i find atoms really interesting but i don't understand basic chemistry like ions.

i find the internet too mean and rotten and i think cringe culture is dumb.

i am really bad at japanese but i'm trying.

i love stickers and collect ties with silly/fun designs.

collecting internet stamps is awesome, too. i love little blinkies and such.

TO WHOM IT MAY CONCERN; DNI IF YOU ARE IN THIS LIST

racist, homophobic, albeist, etc...

proshippers

profic

soushinners

euphoria (the visual novel) fan

pedophiles, paraphilias

gore enjoyers

postal dude fans

weird people in general

sexualise my characters

sexualise thh danganronpa characters

romanticize sh, ed

4channers

my game development project(s?)

would you like to play something fun?

something life changing??

something gut wrenching???

credits to bager for that magnificent art.

play my roblox gameNOW!

my music and poetry projects!

BOTH OF OUR MEDICAL HISTORIES SUCK BUT AT LEAST WE'RE STILL ALIVE! LEARNING TO LIVE EVERYDAY FULL OF LOVE GLOSSARIES! EP

description of the album/ep;

because this is all i've ever wanted: something palpable, a real angel made of cotton and an affectionate glossary that only speaks to those who pretend they're a philosophy eater!

the ep is out on my bandcamp!!

within me outside you

description of the album/ep;

the everlasting grief of a body that doesnt work will follow you for the rest of your existence; and what is there left to say about the overprotective organism that destroyed your life when you were younger? nothing, not a drop of care, not a gaze or a painful thought. because the crimson tightrope you will balance on throughout your journey on earth, red as can be, (like a fountain of blood), trailing all the way to your death, linked to your fragile heartbeat, a steady thrum of your artery, the trembling legs who carry that heavy body, it is tied to your disease; and this disease won't let go. but the pills are delicious! marmalade yuflyma! you'll never have the taste i have for funny chemicals, you cretin!!! Go Away, and never come back, outsider! I SHOULD BE THE ONE ON THAT BUS SEAT!!!!!

the album is out on my bandcamp!!

the sky is an amorist! ah, everyday is wonderful!!

description of the album/ep;

to feel the touch of a billion colors resembling an amorphous needle that pierces through the fragile skin is truly an ambrosian epiphany!!! tell me, do you feel my palm upon your fragile heart? ahaha, of course you do! my auric form, chocolate is the new honey. in our thoughtless eternity, we must persevere and drink through the pain we sought to hide away from. crestfallen, humanity grabs at the strings of comfort and bites at my knees. My/K/n/e/e/s?My/K/n/e/e/s?M////Yknees? kneMy Knees? knekneekneekn? ahaha, of course you do! the deluge of painful emotions bites at my eyes as well. the disconsolate mutt cries at its tearful paws that builds roots inside my arms: it hurts! it hurts! it hurts! j'ai mal, oh, j'ai mal! a l'aide, a l'aide, je t'en supplie! hey, God? Do you Hear me? God stares at you as if you were some intern in the hotel of heaven.

the album is out on my bandcamp!!

stuff i made!

here is my dream diary!

here is my literature!!

here are my poems!!

here are my doodles!!

here is my cd collection!!

(different from poetry)

here is my soundcloud!

here is my redbubble!

here is my artfight!

here is my youtube!

here is my discogs!